

It's not like I don't want to commit but whenever I get close to a guy a little voice inside my head goes "What are you doing? He's just going to hurt you" and as Marilyn Monroe taught me ' a wise girl kisses but doesn't love, listens but doesn't believe and leaves before she is left.' So I peace out like a pimp, and I end up getting hurt anyways because all I'm left with is a lot of what ifs and I hate that more then anything, but I don't change, I keep repeating the same pattern and eventually there's going to be no boys left. If there's one thing I've learned about myself over the years it's that I have serious commitment issues. Sometimes we don't know what we want until we don't get it. I was having a talk with my friend about a former boy that was in my life, and he said something that upset me and I just sort of broke down and lost it.

You know those days where you just can't stop crying and you have no idea why? Yesterday was one of those days.
